I went to my all-time favourite Finnish city yesterday -and secretly wished that I would be fulfilled with the warmth of it, with the coziness of its familiarity, and with the great things it reminds me of. Ever since my high school days were over, I have missed the city and everything it represents. I have looked forward to every visit over there, just because every time I go there, the good memories come back to me in an instant. Although I never really lived in the city (except as a baby), it used to feel like home.
Yesteday, however, things weren’t the same anymore. For the first time in years, the city didn’t feel like it used to. I had an ok time there, but that’s all. I didn’t really feel that comfortable there anymore; the city had lost its coziness, its familiarity, its significance to me. I was a bit puzzled at this. The city, although it used to have such a strong place in my heart, now only brought up nostalgic feelings, nothing else.
On my way back to my apartment, I was surprised to notice that when I got off the bus, I felt relieved. I looked at the surroundings with a smile on my face, and realized I belong here. Everything feels so cozy, so comfortable, so familiar here. I feel at home in this city. And I only needed a little trip back to my old comfort zone to realize it was not there anymore.
I really do love it here. It feels great to be home.