…yet it feels like everything has changed. Arriving in Finland felt weird. At the same time, everything seems unchanged, all the people are here, the things look familiar, and even my room has all my stuff in it. On the other hand, I have changed and it feels unreal to be here instead of Toronto. I’m supposed to start living this life again, but I’m not sure if I want to. I know it’s just the first day here, and I’m still confused, jetlagged and a bit sad. I should give Finland a chance. I’m just missing Toronto and some people so much that it blocks me from experiencing the good things Finland has got in store for me.
Six months ago, I was trying to think up to this day and couldn’t wait to be here with my people, my work, my life etc. But now it all feels so uninspiring. Not that I don’t look forward to seeing my friends and family, I do and that’s the greatest part of being back. But at the same time, it feels as if I have to find another kind of path or insight for my life. Because the things that I am missing the most right now, I cannot have. I just have to learn to deal with it, and figure out other things that will make me happy again.
Very nice!!
Thank you for your great words. I am leaving my country (Egypt) to Ottawa soon.
You made my feeling so confused.
Good luck in your life.